“His absence is like the sky, spread over everything.”
C.S. Lewis
from A Grief Observed
I will be forever grateful for all the kind comments and loving letters I have received about Edward. He would have been astonished to realize he was known, much less loved, by so many wonderful people all over the world. For myself I am humbled and grateful. I promise to answer every letter personally. For the moment, however, I am attempting to accept and navigate Edward’s absence. It is much harder than I ever would have believed. I shall return in time.
Thank you and love to you all.
Pamela
I hope you take every bit of whatever time you need. xox.
ReplyDeleteYou will fly again when it's time...
ReplyDeletePamela,
ReplyDeleteIt is sometimes hard to believe how much "space" a dog takes up in our lives and our heart. Their presence in our lives and their love is unconditional. They are there on good days, and bad and they are always there with a lick, maybe a lopsided smile and a cuddle.
I knew I loved my Munchen and like you knew her time was limited but I could not fathom the overwhelming grief that enveloped my life when she passed.
Take all the time you need and know that your Edward was loved by many.
A hug and may prayers are being sent your way.
I am so sorry for your loss and my heart breaks for you. I have been reading your blog for years. I know that because I remember reading your blog even before we got our golden retriever who is now 5 1/2 years old. I can't even imagine the sadness you must feel but I want you to know how special sweet Edward was to all of us who read about him. He was magical and I thank you for sharing him with us. Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. Take all the time you need and I wish you peace in the days to come.
ReplyDeleteTake care,
Shelley
Bless you both
ReplyDeleteI am so terribly sorry for your loss. I had only recently started following your blog but in the few visits I admit that I had too fallen deeply in love with your Edward. Those all knowing eyes and the gentle joy of him radiated in every picture. There's no doubt that he loved you dearly and he knew that you loved him. I am touched by the magical relationship that the two of you shared. My fur kids and I send you and Edward our warmest thoughts and prayers.
ReplyDeleteSallie
I was thinking of you this morning. Love you both. For me, no greater loss than my best friends.
ReplyDeleteI am so glad I bought both of his books. yes I know you wrote them dearest girl. but to me they are and always will be Edward's Books!
ReplyDeletehe's right here by my reading chair and I see that sweet face every day and rejoice that I knew him.
I had a little pon. Zeke. he also died of cancer. and it seemed to also come suddenly. that was 6 years ago. and like it was yesterday.
you know that we will always be here when you're ready to share again. just take care of you. xoxo♥
And love to you too Pamela - and to the memory of that 'almost human' dog.
ReplyDeleteYes, that sky is endlessly vast when I heart is broken.
ReplyDeleteSending love and strength & joy and peace. xoxo Mary
ReplyDeleteNo need for follow up with me - I know how you feel. We just had a home visit from a vet to say goodbye to our beloved (aren't they all?) Luke . . since we have six dogs (now five - at one time nine!) - it never, ever gets easier - saying goodbye. I told the vet this and she said 'it's not suppose to be' - how so very true. The house just isn't the same without him - and that also - is the way it's suppose to be. But what a fella Edward was . . . very special (just like our Lukies:)
ReplyDeleteDear Pamela, I can't imagine. I've lost a couple of dear canine "children." But my current is my alter-ego, my soul-mate. When he goes, I will feel like my heart has been cut out of my chest. He was rescued by my son many years ago. As usual the son goes off to school, etc. so mom gets the dog.
ReplyDeleteHe has been such a blessing through the death of my mother, my father, and then my husband. This dog and I have such history together. The idea of losing him just stuns me like a gun. I can't bear the pain I know you're feeling. Thinking of you ... and not that far behind. Sending my utmost sympathy.
Sharing your sorrow on the other side of the world. Edward reached far across borders and oceans and gave us all respite from this uncertain world. Thank you for sharing him.
ReplyDeleteIt's like this:
ReplyDeleteI Carry Your Heart With Me
By E. E. Cummings
i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)
Source: https://www.familyfriendpoems.com/poem/i-carry-your-heart-with-me-by-ee-cummings
Love is love. You carry Edward's heart in your heart. Like magic. You will breathe again. You will. Meagan
You and Edward have blessed each of us. Thank you so very much. May you come through this pain of his loss sooner than later. He is always with you.
ReplyDeleteI feel your pain, I'm not sure you ever stop missing a beloved pet. Edward was a rare and wonderful dog put on this earth to give joy and he accomplished that not just for his family but for his fans as well.
ReplyDeletexo,
Karen
Pamela, you continue to be in my prayers. Sending love and thoughts of comfort and healing to all at the Terry house, and a big hug to Apple.
ReplyDeleteHis loss will be felt by so many of us who loved him from afar. His sweet face lifted our spirits and calmed our mood.
ReplyDeleteI pray for God's comfort for you. It is so hard to lose a loved one.
Many hugs and much love are sent your way.
We will be here for you, whenever you are ready. 💖
ReplyDeleteOh, dear - I haven't been able to read your blog, which I do first thing when I get to work, due to the hurricane. I am so very sorry; I loved Edward as if he was my own. I'd like to say it will get easier, but I still cry for my Max who has been gone 6 years. I have such wonderful memories to keep in mind and I do have my Max with me each and every day - the thing that continues to help is I firmly believe he will be there to meet me when my time comes. Lots of hugs from me and my Lucy who sits by my side each day as did my Max ---
ReplyDeleteMr. T. just cruelly decided to turn his back on the DACA residents of our great land. I turned to your blog hoping for wisdom and comfort. I am shocked to read of Edward's death. Your large, wonderful dog was my friend as well and I've enjoyed reading about him for a few years now. I'm sending prayers for you and the Songwriter. I like the quote seen here, "grief is the price we pay for love". But however much it hurts, it is always worth it. Peace to you, dear Pamela.
ReplyDeleteTake all the time you need. This was a love that was incredible and great. All of mine who have crossed the bridge I still weep for them. Some have been years. Others not so much. We will see you when we see you. Take good care of yourself.
ReplyDeleteDear Pamela, I just read about Edward last night. Due to my age (75) and past owner of seven animals, I know the heartache you are feeling. Edward was special and he was loved by so many. Take time to heal and reflect on the good times - and I know there were many. Give a lot of extra hugs to Apple because she is hurting too!
ReplyDeleteWords cannot express my sadness of learning of Edward's passing. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your husband and Apple. Edward will live on in all the lives that have been touched by your blog and books. May you finds peace in your memories.
ReplyDeleteDear Pamela,
ReplyDeletePlease add my name to the folks who loved Edward from afar. I am so sorry for your personal loss and ours.
Take comfort in knowing that you could not have loved him more or better....I wish you peace. XXX
Pamela Sweeney, NH
I can't even "speak", my throat is locked. You and the Songwriter and Apple are in my thoughts and prayers.
ReplyDeleteJust wondering how you are feeling Pamela. Such a large hole this wonderful being has left in the lives of so many all over the world. Time is the greatest healer . He will forever have a special spot in your heart and ours
ReplyDeleteI hope the planning for your next trip is a distraction during this time of sadness Pamela.
ReplyDeletexx
My sympathies for the loss of your beautiful Edward
ReplyDeleteI hope you take as much time for yourself as you need.
What made me visit your blog today was instinct I think...I return from time to time to catch up on you and Edward and am greatly saddened by this news. People around the world have felt the warmth of your loving relationship with him for years now. Ny condolences, Pamela, as you learn to live with the memories and bear the great grief you feel. Indeed, he is a constellation in the sky,,I feel privileged to have known him through your writings and photos and will be looking for your return, whenever that may be. <3
ReplyDeleteI have just been thinking of you each day and I thought I'd tell you.
ReplyDeleteand as I look to the right ... I see you and Edward in the Autumn picture. my favorite time of year. I still can hardly believe he is gone. so if I feel that way I can't imagine your own thoughts.
be kind to yourself dear one and share with us your great gifts when you're ready again. you and Edward both are sorely missed.
love
tammy j
Dearest Pamela, I am so sorry for your loss of Edward. Prayers for you and the wonderful times you had together...Phil
ReplyDeleteDogs are our link to paradise. They don’t know evil or jealousy or discontent. To sit with a dog on a hillside on a glorious afternoon is to be back in Eden, where doing nothing was not boring—it was peace. ~Milan Kundera
ReplyDeletethank you for your blog, your heart...